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Forgo the holiday cheer Bartender please grab me another beer For I will not sing about what tidings bring But to them I'll gladly drink Winter nights are long & they are cold With no one in your bed to keep you warm & I ain't slept the same since you gone away Now this silent night, it's all that's left to blame The snow outside is falling down White as a blanket of blow on the ground No drug I could take would do shit to shake The blues that I'm feeling now So dress up that tree in your room With bright lights & ornaments then maybe soon We might believe it ain't been dead for weeks But hey, at least it's something to see

Lying in my bed at night Alone, awake, & paralyzed Staring at the ceiling whites For any sign of life My bones will shake My thought will race Moving at a hurried pace But do they ever align? As if there's no such thing as too much time a primal fear that's grown with years Informed by existential tears That we are to each unknown & we are born to die alone Can our dreams survive? As if there's no such thing as too much time At 34 been through these wars Ain't nothing like it was before & sure as Hell I can't complain But will I always feel this way? Do things ever really change? Am I living this life? Am I living it right? As if there's no such thing as too much time

Should have known when I brought you home & took off your clothes, left by the stairs Your naked skin looks good against the concrete floor Of my basement... No, I don't know what to do with you tonight As my obsession with you increases Are you thrilled to pieces?

Driving home on a night like this the air is brisk but not too cold Just left her house moments ago the stars are out, God's turned on the lights Sleep now sun for soon you will wake & let her shine in my thoughts as you dream of brighter days Just turned off North Avenue & the night is quiet at this hour My stereo sings songs of rest but not my heart, beating fast in my chest Sleep now sun for soon you will wake & let her shine in my thoughts as you dream of brighter days

half the mind to call maybe you could call it off put aside the years of late come with me to run away far from fears & questioning towards a love that's promising deep enough to wash clean the doubts that creep & filter in though our hearts have seen the loneliest of shelves & fires cast to be expelled I can't help but hold onto that fading hope a final breath before we choke again in past lives it was figured out young enough to brave the claims strong & steady wins the race until you're left with saving face you take for granted saving grace the folly of our novice love the fall seems never ending unknown to depths impending what balance can be found when feet don't meet the ground with breakerfalls depending on love & second chances with breakerfalls depending on love & second chances

Silence plays the best of friends & time for sleep to steal Blue Ribbon aids to ease the mood When nothing else will do Write it down or scream aloud Distortion fills the room But honest never makes a sound To hearts so cold & blue a common sin will filter in Occasion for regret But minutes can't replace the days That flow with foggy haze It's not that I've felt too much to handle It's a lack of things to feel True love is gonna cost us a fortune When emptiness is real Where heights they seem so far away When you live below & so they that life is short But who are they to know? It's obvious they've never lived a day so slow Now I say that life is like a scene on pause But now with no remote - oh no! & motion merely but a dream Young lovers only hope It's not that I've felt too much to handle It's a lack of things to feel True love is gonna cost us a fortune When emptiness is real

As we watched the fire burn Centuries of liturgy Fan the flame at Notre Dame What will remain? Oh my God, where are you now? As we watched the fire burn Centuries in effigy Fan the flame at Notre Dame What will remain? Oh my God, where are you now? Hallelujah Oh my God, where are you now? Hallelujah

I'm over the ocean Over the hill Over the dell Over the fireline Over the sand Over the plan Over the empire & if I belong Then I'll be longer than expected & if I'm wrong The mighty & strong will be rejected I'm over the ocean

Is love found in a dream? Blowing in the trees? Floating on a breeze? Down in the dirt Deep where it hurts Love is unearthed Arise Arise, my love

You found me in a groove & you knew what you could do Those subtle eyes won't compromise with my solitary mood Maybe we could take a chance a follow-up upon your glances a chemistry made in blue maybe we could yield the proof I know what you wanted (I don't know) But I could not be that for you I know what you wanted (I don't know) But I could not be there Nothing left to lose I could take or I could leave it Old enough to realize some voids can't be repleted It's not that I'm incapable I'm just more comfortable retreated So please don't go blaming yourself I've just long since been defeated I know what you wanted (I don't know) But I could not be that for you I know what you wanted (I don't know) But I could not be there

If love is hell & hell is other people & all our best intentions lead to the same ol' destinations Where does that leave us? Lord knows I've tried to be a better man But my lack of inspiration & my lazy inclinations Will they foreshadow unmet ends? Well, I've spent my life inside The Cave mistaking shadows for the light Now I'm free to finally walk outside & feel the warmth surround me Oh, let it in What is sacred? What is holy? Is life not the process of dying slowly? What is righteous? Is all this only a myth to pacify the lonely? Or a truth we sacrifice atoning? If only time will tell tell us which way it is moving Some years have passed in seconds Yet the seconds move so slow Won't you tell me which way does it flow? Now my life is halfway over & time is wearing thin Wearing memories like a blanket a patchwork knit together all stitched with tattered ends Well, I've spent my life inside The Cave mistaking shadows for the light Now I'm free to finally walk outside & feel the warmth surround me Oh, let it in What is sacred? What is holy? Is life not the process of dying slowly? What is righteous? Is all this only a myth to pacify the lonely? Or a truth we sacrifice atoning?

Days like this get me down when the sky is pale & the air is heavy with thoughts of thunderstorms Well, she's out there on her own & she says she likes rain & if my forecast is certain I'll be seeing less & less of her Well, I ain't much for nightlife But she's just not that way & she's made all these new friends they consume so much of her So maybe I'm the one alone & I just don't like the rain & if my forecast is certain I won't be seeing her again soon She's gone

I know where you've been (I've been watching) While my will is wearing thin (from ignoring) a hunger for the hunting (it's so boring) without a focus I'm restoring I know what you're like (when you're moving) & you sway side to side (so alluring) 'hon, I just want a bite (of the fruit you're procuring) 'cuz I know that it's ripe (& it's mine) I just want a bite (of the fruit you're procuring) 'cuz I know that it's mine Yeah, we'll sail through the night on cassette waves on the blade of a knife Thick as thieves out of sight You're a shade of pink on my black-lit sky I feel it creeping in (without warning) in pursuit of this again (it's alarming) when it crawls beneath the skin (so disarming) once it fuses we begin I could make an obsession out of you I know what you're like (when you're moving) & you sway side to side (so alluring) 'hon, I just want a bite (of the fruit you're procuring) 'cuz I know that it's ripe (& it's mine) I just want a bite (of the fruit you're procuring) 'cuz I know that it's mine as we glide through the tides in the deep of the night where the creature resides show me yours show you mine the facade fades out with the passage of time cut the skin blood will thin breath leaves your body the numbing of limbs terrified hold you tight 'till the sunrise burns what's left of your life Yeah, we'll sail through the night on cassette waves on the blade of a knife Thick as thieves out of sight You're a shade of pink on my black-lit sky

Scene 1 Weighted by an empty pool Early morning where it's nice & cool, & then... Confessions of a fading love While the moon & sun debate who's up, so what? Her "For no particular reason Just needing change with the turn of the season For no particular reason Just needing change..." "Come & see me, maybe when the summer ends..." Scene 2 We sat there as the daylight burned a purple sky to pastel turned Entangled like a sparrow's nest On a wind carrying our end Her "For no particular reason Just needing change with the turn of the season For no particular reason Just needing change..." "Come & see me, maybe when the summer ends..." Him "Maybe I'll see you around, sometime..."

We all go back in time; relapse We all find that to be true, given time... With wings outstretched in cement We tried to fly but never left the ground For brighter skies & higher heights We had to try, or never would've known I can't regret a love undone Ending before it had ever begun & to this day, I'm still undone I'm still undone